So exams were actually over more than a week ago.. I had never been so stressed for an OSCE in my life.. lol but in the end it kinda turned out to be similar to what he had in IMU, only the focus was different and the setting was more like a marketplace when it started.. yeap the OSCE was freaking unfair but I passed.. and passed the written as well so all is good and that will be a valuable experience to me in final year.. Funny thing is, the very next day I went to London and met Kah Weng and Mabel.. it was very unfortunate that they had to come all the way from Edinburgh just coz of the actions of some thief.. Anyway, we heard lotsa interesting stories.. lol and if I were to compare our OSCE with theirs, I'd imagine I would be way more stressed if I was in Seremban.. lol.. stressed for different reasons I guess.. like I said, the focus so different...
Moved into my new house.. well, Ming Zhan's house! hehe and it was a complete mess when I first transfered everything over.. I have so many witnesses it was damn embarassing!!! sighhh... lol I bet you everyone's thinking how much stuff I actually have.. true true.. I don't deny.. but anyway, it's so much better now that I've packed my stuff and bought the furniture I wanted.. thanks again to MZ who fixed everything for me.. lol..
So Suisse and Sat came to visit, then Cheng and Matthew came to visit.. heheh it was so fun having them around.. we went on our roadtrip to Stonehenge and Bath, then MZ took them(including me who has hardly seen Southampton) around the few interesting spots in Soton.. Next day went to Portsmouth for shopping at Gunwharf Quays! hehe so this weekend will be our turn to visit Notts and I'm looking forward to that!
Last few days just been packing my stuff and doing housework.. Soon I really gtg to London for some dancing.. Almost went today but I thought I should probably stay for some reason.. next week definitely need to to go.. sighh.. I miss Alex Wong on SYTYCD.. would've liked to see him do more on the show..
Ever since the paper on Monday I've just been feeling low and not able to focus on OSCE... So many things are just bugging me.. I can't stand it.. I know I should just take it as it is because it's what I should do and everyone has to go through this but man... I just have to admit how I'm sucking at accepting it... Just coz I'm a person whose so particular about fairness.. and about honesty... It's just killing me.. It's killing me that people here can't even think of a simple way to make the exam fair... even IMU had a better system... I know I'm in this position for a reason.. and I know that I should just accept it and move on.. just trying to prepare myself for OSCE is so discouraging... I used to love OSCEs.. that is the main part of medicine if you ask me.. without clinical skills you can't apply the knowlege you've got.. and despite loving it I've always also been terrified of it more than the theory papers.. This time I'm so scared coz it's like the first time we're doing it here and have no idea how the doctors are going to be like... I think this is such a disadvantage for the IMU students coz we've never learnt how to counsel and practice good communication skills.. I truly believe that this is not something you can learn in a short span of time unless... you fake it.. I believe the only way we can apply it in life is by experience.. but then now we're forced to act as if we're going for a drama exam and it's just urghhhhh... irritating to me... it's bloody fake... and I hate faking... but at the end of the day I know that's what I need to do to pass the exam... I'm just gonna have to put on a high pitched voice and pretend I have invisible pamphlets with me.. In fact I don't really have a problem with doing these counselling for patients.. It's pretty damn important that we know the right things to say to patients.. and yes we need to know it but this whole process of preparing is just bringing me down somehow.. it's just the fakeness surrounding it... arghhh I dont know why I'm so bothered.. I just have to suck up all this fakeness and unfairness and hope that God put me in this position for my own benefit... I guess may the best actor win..
GP posting here is pretty interesting... I'm glad I got a nice consultant.. =) It's tiring tho with the long hours.. Can't really study when I get home.. Yesterday cracked and went to Ming Zhan's place to watch the Brazil match... sigh sigh my self control is pretty poor.. But seeing Kaka makes me happy..
It's Cheng's birthday today! Hope you all wished her! lol
I woke up today feeling a bit moody for some reason.. obviously not really looking forward to another day at home in front of my books.. where has my life gone? Then someone knocked on my door and called me out to the kitchen for a real treat... Nasi Lemak! omg... my flatmate made Nasi Lemak.. and she made some for me and Alex as well! How nice of her.. and it was superb! my goshhhh... better than any Nasi Lemak we've so far tried here.. well obviously! haha this is authentic! Mmmm mmm! Still makes me happy thinking about it...
Nothing else to say actually... Hope revision is going well for those about to have exams and for those who don't, enjoy yourselves while we suffer
Falling sick... so not good... I don't know how long I can go sleeping 5 hours everyday but I might just need to do that till exams are over... gawd I really want to pass this year and move onto 4th year..
omg... my flatmate made Nasi Lemak.. and she made some for me and Alex as well! How nice of her.. and it was superb! my goshhhh... better than any Nasi Lemak we've so far tried here.. well obviously! haha this is authentic! Mmmm mmm! Still makes me happy thinking about it... 
